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lost in this daydream
People are so sick these days. I mean how far would you go for attention? Bringing someone else down? Telling lies? Being a whore? I don’t know what to say about people anymore like do you actually you just lie to yourself because I already figured out you are lying because you are a bad liar. I wish people would just let these mascs fall down and be honest…
I learned to trust nobody cause all they gonna do is let you down and I am actually lonely but it’s so hard to trust people after everything they did.
I learned to keep my eyes open.
I haven’t slept in the past few days ‘cause I feel so bad and I can’t tell why… Umm wait. I know why. Because my friends are mean bitches who are just leaving me because I don’t do what they want me to do and I feel so sad about it. I shouldn’t but… I am so scared of being alone so that I just keep quite and smile. Even if it’s fake… There hasn’t been a day since a month where I didn’t thought that life would be better without me. Maybe it would be. I’m so scared of tomorrow and any other day which will come … and I just want to be death. There are so many cuts on my arm and my legs. I can’t do this anymore. I’m tired. I can’t talk to nayone, I tried before and it was horrible because it seemed that not even my scars are good enough…
… I’m sorry for this sad post but this is actually how I feel right now and I can’t change and maybe it’s too late.
- Nicole. ♡

People are so sick these days. I mean how far would you go for attention? Bringing someone else down? Telling lies? Being a whore? I don’t know what to say about people anymore like do you actually you just lie to yourself because I already figured out you are lying because you are a bad liar. I wish people would just let these mascs fall down and be honest…

I learned to trust nobody cause all they gonna do is let you down and I am actually lonely but it’s so hard to trust people after everything they did.

I learned to keep my eyes open.

I haven’t slept in the past few days ‘cause I feel so bad and I can’t tell why… Umm wait. I know why. Because my friends are mean bitches who are just leaving me because I don’t do what they want me to do and I feel so sad about it. I shouldn’t but… I am so scared of being alone so that I just keep quite and smile. Even if it’s fake… There hasn’t been a day since a month where I didn’t thought that life would be better without me. Maybe it would be. I’m so scared of tomorrow and any other day which will come … and I just want to be death. There are so many cuts on my arm and my legs. I can’t do this anymore. I’m tired. I can’t talk to nayone, I tried before and it was horrible because it seemed that not even my scars are good enough…

… I’m sorry for this sad post but this is actually how I feel right now and I can’t change and maybe it’s too late.

- Nicole.

That’s exactly how I feel right now… like I don’t know. I don’t feel anything at all. I was standing outside yesterday evening and it was actually really cold but I just stood there and felt nothing like I can’t say how I feel right now. I just want to crawl in my bed and cry. Life brought me down in the past few days and I started to wonder if life would be better without me, like would someone even notice if I left?
I don’t wanna go out anymore ‘cause everything I get from people is hate and I feel so sick and not even my friends give a fuck about that. They are taling about what a bad person I’m because I’ve no time at the weekends and all I does is messaging with them and that bothers me. I am always there if they nned me, I stay awake to 4 am to sole their problems even if mine are bigger. But when I’m down they’re like : Okay. I call you later. If I would ask them to stay they wouldn’t …
… but I try to keep going like one day will be a good day.                                                     That’s why I want you guys to keep going. If I can you can do it too.
Keep going don’t stop in hell.
- Nicole. ♡

That’s exactly how I feel right now… like I don’t know. I don’t feel anything at all. I was standing outside yesterday evening and it was actually really cold but I just stood there and felt nothing like I can’t say how I feel right now. I just want to crawl in my bed and cry. Life brought me down in the past few days and I started to wonder if life would be better without me, like would someone even notice if I left?

I don’t wanna go out anymore ‘cause everything I get from people is hate and I feel so sick and not even my friends give a fuck about that. They are taling about what a bad person I’m because I’ve no time at the weekends and all I does is messaging with them and that bothers me. I am always there if they nned me, I stay awake to 4 am to sole their problems even if mine are bigger. But when I’m down they’re like : Okay. I call you later. If I would ask them to stay they wouldn’t …

… but I try to keep going like one day will be a good day.                                                     That’s why I want you guys to keep going. If I can you can do it too.

Keep going don’t stop in hell.

- Nicole.

I dream a lot… most of the time. It’s an escape from everything, my problems, my friends, the future and so many other things.
People call me often a dreamer and that I am lost and that my life will pass by but I think that dreaming is an ability. Most of the people I know have planed their lives from the first to the last second. Their live will pass by. They won’t dream big things because they are too scared of losing their way but there are diffrent ways to get to your destination.
It seems like they are just living and doing the things someone told them to do instead of doing the things they dreamed about before they started to believe dreaming is useless.
Guys, never stop dreaming because those things will keep you going because you believe those things will happen even if they are impossible. Everything big starts from something little. Do you remember  the speech from Martin Luther King? I had a dream…                        That’s  how great things start.
Keep dreaming because it’s an gift.
- Nicole. ♡

I dream a lot… most of the time. It’s an escape from everything, my problems, my friends, the future and so many other things.

People call me often a dreamer and that I am lost and that my life will pass by but I think that dreaming is an ability. Most of the people I know have planed their lives from the first to the last second. Their live will pass by. They won’t dream big things because they are too scared of losing their way but there are diffrent ways to get to your destination.

It seems like they are just living and doing the things someone told them to do instead of doing the things they dreamed about before they started to believe dreaming is useless.

Guys, never stop dreaming because those things will keep you going because you believe those things will happen even if they are impossible. Everything big starts from something little. Do you remember  the speech from Martin Luther King? I had a dream…                        That’s  how great things start.

Keep dreaming because it’s an gift.

- Nicole.

Hiii. I’m Nicole.
I don’t know. I’m not intressting at all… I’m just boring but I will tell you something about that weird shit which is going on inside my head.
Maybe I should tell you something about my life and me so you can imagine what I’m going to blog about.
Okay. I am 15 and not from The USA. I’m that kind of person who you can call at 4 am and I would listen to you until your problem is solved, even if I’ve enough own problems. Most of the time I’m weird and annoying because I sing all the time, no matter if you like it or not. I would like to tell you something about the music I am into but I’m pretty sure you don’t wanna start that conversation. I love books they have helped to get through some rough times. Something more? I fangirl a lot. Don’t judge me.
I don’t trust peole easily and I am not a Famebitch. I don’t like to stand infront of more than two person. I am against bullying and I think that everyone’s perfect in a diffrent way. So I’m gonna love all of you no matter how you look.  ♡
I don’t know if there is anything more to say about me… 
… I don’t know if even one person reads that but I hope I can help you and that you can relate to some of my texts. If you need someone to talk to kik me : lostfangirl - I know there’s that fangirl ones again.
- Nicole.  ♡

Hiii. I’m Nicole.

I don’t know. I’m not intressting at all… I’m just boring but I will tell you something about that weird shit which is going on inside my head.

Maybe I should tell you something about my life and me so you can imagine what I’m going to blog about.

Okay. I am 15 and not from The USA. I’m that kind of person who you can call at 4 am and I would listen to you until your problem is solved, even if I’ve enough own problems. Most of the time I’m weird and annoying because I sing all the time, no matter if you like it or not. I would like to tell you something about the music I am into but I’m pretty sure you don’t wanna start that conversation. I love books they have helped to get through some rough times. Something more? I fangirl a lot. Don’t judge me.

I don’t trust peole easily and I am not a Famebitch. I don’t like to stand infront of more than two person. I am against bullying and I think that everyone’s perfect in a diffrent way. So I’m gonna love all of you no matter how you look. 

I don’t know if there is anything more to say about me…

… I don’t know if even one person reads that but I hope I can help you and that you can relate to some of my texts. If you need someone to talk to kik me : lostfangirl - I know there’s that fangirl ones again.

- Nicole.